Our little miracle.

I was reminded how incredibly lucky we are the other day. Not that I don't thank God every day for our precious Reagan, I sometimes get caught up in the little things and get discouraged and I forget that they are so minor compared to what could be. A fellow preemie mom just lost her baby the other night. He was a month old and was born at 32 weeks. My heart breaks for her and I can't imagine what they are feeling. I thought to myself- this could be us and here I am getting upset because she's such a pain to feed because of her reflux. I felt really guilty. I am so truly blessed to have this little miracle to hold in my arms and kiss whenever I want. She's so healthy compared to what could be. She's ahead developmentally and she's such a sweet, happy baby. I'm so lucky. I'm reminded of God's love for us whenever I look at her sweet smiling face. No matter how bad things may seem sometimes, it all melts away when she smiles at me. Nothing else can compare.

She has been eating a little better. Especially today. I only had one time where she got really upset during a feeding. I just had to hold her close and kiss her forehead and she started eating again. I guess she just needed comfort from her mommy. :) She goes to the doctor tomorrow for a weight check. When she went the other day, she had only gained an ounce and a half in 3 weeks! That's not good. This stupid reflux. Since then, we changed her breast milk fortifier (the formula we add to make it more calories) and she has been eating a lot better. I guess she didn't like the Alimentum formula. We switched her to Similac Sensitive.