emotionally exhausted

So emotionally exhausted. I have felt more emotions over the past 2 years than ever before. Now that the smoke has cleared a little, I'm left with picking up the pieces and thanking God I've made it to this point. He sure has given me a lot to handle and a lot of "life lessons" in the past 2 years. I'll never truly understand why... But I can only appreciate it because it makes me stronger. I've fallen to my knees more times than I can count during all this and there's no where to look but up. I just wish sometimes He didn't put so much faith in me. :-/